so far i have completed 17 things not really that impressive i know! Some days i just think fuck it lol there's far more things for me to be getting on with such as learning to drive. I also have the impending daunting task of still getting my stuff from the flat in Reading. I'm dreading it to be honest.
I keep trying to put it at the back of my mind and hoping it will go away. It of course will be better when everything is sorted and all loose ends tied up. I still have sad days when i think back on how i lost my best friend to his addiction and it breaks my heart everyday. I get overwhelming thoughts of this is not my life i never imagined we would ever part. Tomorrow will be the 2 month mark, since i have been single i don't really know why I'm counting it its not like this is going to blow over. Saying that i do have lots of happy days and I'm always grateful in the fact I'm not going to be lied to or let down by him again i guess I'm just in a reflective mood.
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